Leave Takings

Leave Takings
by graywolf 5/13/2012

What to say when it's time to say goodbye.
I'm not sure why, why not give a new try?
Why is it I thought your words were true.
I never thought this of you.
Indications were few.

A'las it's time
to accept it's time to go.
I don't understand and I don't know.

The world now seems so small.
So insignificant.
All I want is to see the universe.
The unexplored areas of space and time.

You opened my mind.
to these possibilities.
Someday soon, I hope I can fly.
I hope to see
something way more than you or me.

Alone or together it doesn't matter.
Without anyone to hold me back
I know I can go a lot further.
It's what gives me the the strength
to risk the great unknown.
Alone I can go so much further.
Don't worry, things will be better!
Maybe I'll get to see our savior.
Maybe I'll waive
waive to the angels.
As I pass by heaven.
I'll avoid the black depths of hell.
Oh don't worry I'll gain so many secrets.
There will be no one to tell.

And when, I reach the edge of the universe.
That invisible line between now and infinity.
I'll take another journey.
My destination is unknown.
It might even be crazy!
Don't worry I won't be lazy!!

So, I understand why you had to take your leave.
It's hard for me to believe.
I hope the best for only the best.
I have been the least.
I'll have a grand feast.
When the time is right.
I know you'll take flight.
And maybe one  night,
You'll stop by.
And together we can share.
Share what it is that happened.
The mysteries of the universe will be known.
For you were the greatest mystery to me.

Friends

Well, this is just a narrative.   I don't get life sometimes.  I realize friends come and go and that's just part of life.  But, it's the quality of people and the friends we keep in our lives that help determine the quality we have and I would hope we in term as friends help determine the quality of other's lives.

Several good, what I thought were friends, more or less, betrayed me by simply saying good bye.  That they don't have time for me.   Betrayed is a strong word, but, I'm not sure how to describe it.  We shared a lot, we went through similar circumstances, and trusted each other.   To just up and say goodbye seems rather belittling of a friendship.

I don't claims to be perfect. I have my own issues and I'm not afraid to admit that.  I still value the people in my life. I take no one and nothing for granted.  I don't know what I've done to deserve this, if I had done or said anything that would drive these people away. I would understand and agree with them and learn from it.  However, to just tell me I don't have time to be your friend, doesn't tell me anything other than I'm not important.  I'm not so arrogant as to think I'm the best thing since sliced bread.  However, I like to think at the very least I offer positive encouragement, support, and build up others.

That I respect myself and others. That I would do anything for my friends.  I can't do anything to change anyone's mind.  I just wish people had the guts to tell me how I screwed up, if I screwed up.  Telling me they don't have time for me doesn't tell me anything.  It certainly doesn't explain why I suddenly have no priority in their lives. I didn't ask to be a high priority and never thought of myself as a high priority in my friend's lives.   However, nothing is said to indicate why I'm no longer any priority.  Why I deserve to just removed from the list of priorities.

If this has taught me anything, it has taught me to value the short time people are in my life.  One never knows when others will leave my life just because they feel like it.  I will cherish the time I have with any friends.  For, life is ever changing and people will always come and go!

It's Right and Wrong

It's Right and Wrong
by Graywolf 4/21/2012

The past is so wrong
the present so right.
It's so wrong and right.
The beady red eyes
staring in the night.
Ready to pounce.
What a fairy tale.
Is that all it is?
A time lost?

the past was wrong.
The present is right.
How does the world
stop being night?
Is there a brighter sight?
Why is it so easy to fight?
Where is the light?

Sometimes the past is wrong.
Sometimes the present is right.
Sometimes  we all take flight.

Today I rule the world.
Tomorow I'm but a petty slave.
Let's forget it all at a rave.

Why is it I walk alone.
Yesterday, today, tomorrow.
I've always walked alone.
the past is wrong.
The present is right.
Alone it has always been.

The darkness of the universe consumes.
Beacons of light twinkling here and there.
They're too far.
Too far to care.
No shadows walk with me.
Only the lonely eyes stare.
They're empty
they're free.

Sometimes those eyes are so dreamy.
Lost in the wake of time.
Alone are the moments we walk.
Present to past.
The past is wrong.
The present is right.
Which when do we fight?
Will anyone understand my plight?
Can I just sprout wings and take flight?
When will we reach the end of the night?

The future is cold.
The past is wrong.
The present is right.
Someday we'll be alright.
Unfortunately tonight,
we're alone.
Simply Alone.

Nothing wrong.
It's what needs to be.
Who would understand me?
Who could possibly know?
Few have been to the hell I've been.
I got a small taste of heaven.
And now it's all bland.
Wish I could have my own band.
Play dance songs all night.
Gain a rhythm
let everyone put their hands in the air,
dance tonight, dance, dance tonight.
Never forget nights gone by.
the empty dark nights lost to time.
No sound or rhythm.
Now, hear the music play.
Soon, it could be day.
Depends if the sun comes out.
Depends if the sun shines.

I wish to climb the vines.
Into the heavens.
I wonder where they go.
Can heaven, ever again, I know?
A'las I must live in the now.

The past is wrong.
The present is right.
The future will someday be known.
Love has flown.
Now what?
I don't know.
But But, But,
Why, Why, Why?
Like a child I question all.
It's what leads me to fall
in the nights empty moon.
I'm loves bitch
Maybe some curse by a witch.

I'll probably never know what it is.
However, it'll always slap me upside the head.
Letting me know my place.
It might even be written on my face.
Maybe misdirected by lace.
Misplaced trust.
It's always a bust.

The past is wrong.
tomorrow is never done.
I must move on.